Showing posts with label Life Review. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Life Review. Show all posts

Friday, December 28, 2018

My 2018 In Review

I reviewed my 2017 by the end of Jan 2018 wtf hahaha. It's on the 28th of Jan, 2018, to be exact. So as to not to repeat it again, Imma pen down my 2018 in review before the year ends.

Everything started out pretty well this year. With a new job and a few exciting plans in sight, 2018 seems to be promising. I did have a lot of great moments and good times of course, but I guess it's only normal for the road to be a little bumpy along the way before reaching the end.

So this year, what happened?


1. Charlotte started attending kindergarten


I have to say, I am so so so proud of her and her progress this year. From dashing into her classroom without looking back on her first day of school to her nagging she wants to go to school every. single. day. This girl is just simply amazing. She has also learned a lot and her ability to learn amazed me. During teacher-parents-meeting, the teacher commented that she's a bright and independent student. I could not be any prouder.

2. I became one of Dove DermaSeries Ambassadors


Somewhere early this year, I stumbled upon a post on Facebook. The poster was posting on behalf on her undisclosed client, looking for "real women with real skin problem". I submitted a few pictures of my right hand with cracked skin. A few weeks later, I was called for casting and was being interviewed. The next thing I know, I was shortlisted as one of the ambassadors for Dove's new product - Dove DermaSeries. You can read more here.

It was definitely an unforgettable experience, doing photo shoots and video ad. It gave me a taste of what goes behind the scene of a short 1 minute video. There's definitely a lot of hard work just to catch that one photo and that few scenes that made the cut into the video. You can watch the ad here.

3. I became a breastfeeding counselor.


I remember when I started breastfeeding as a new mom, I hit every corner and suffered for 60 days. Luckily, "Grit" is my middle name wtf. And thanks to Gina, I got every help I ever needed. After I got it right, it has been a smooth-sailing journey ever since. If only I could be more resourceful and understand the importance of attending a breastfeeding course before the baby arrives, that sorrowful 60 days would not even happened. So when Gina announced the opening of TBAN Breastfeeding Counselor Course, I quickly sign myself up.

I've completed the course and all the compulsory assignments and I'm happy to say that I'm now a certified TBAN Breastfeeding Counselor.




4. I went on 2 (semi) solo vacations.


Not entirely solo la but was rather just with Emmett, without Charlotte and the husband. The first trip was to Pulau Redang to surprise Peggy and to celebrate her engagement. It was really just a surprise trip as we were there for only 2 days 1 night. It didn't went really well for me because Emmett was down with RSV. But the surprise was successful so ok la mission accomplished. The second one was with Peggy and Joan to Bangkok. I blogged about it here → Part 1, Part 2 & Part 3.

I am honestly really grateful to my husband for allowing me to do these 2 semi-solo trips. These trips gave me a little breather, though still doing mummy duty.

5. Emmett was admitted to hospital. Twice!


Like I said, he was already not feeling well before we headed to Pulau Redang. Turns out he contacted RSV. I blogged about our first encounter here. The second time was in October due to accute bronchiolitis. Sigh what to do. Both Charlotte and Emmett have weak lungs just like me. Emmett had it worse than Charlotte, though. I got better from all the respiratory sickness around 9~10 years old so the doctor said that my kids will probably be the same. I hope they grow out of it sooner, though.

6. I learned how to put my foot down and walk away from unfair circumstances.


You see, I had 2 young adult students who've been attending my class for close to 3 years. I charged them below market rate and I've not increase my fee throughout the time they engage me. Lately, I felt being taken for granted. They would cancel class without prior notice and expect replacement. Let me show you an example.

Last minute cancel class and ask for replacement without seeking for my permission or at least discuss with me first. I was mad because it's not the first time they've done so.

To be fair, I did not implement on them what I'd usually do when students cancel class and I've been offering replacement out of courtesy because when they first came to me, they were only 19 and they looked keen in learning as they also pay out of their own pocket. So they thought they're entitled to a replacement for every class they cancel. Once, they accumulated 4 absences, and decided among themselves to not pay me the following month's fee as my compensation for them without discussing with me.

I got so so upset and told them off, questioning their courtesy and if they've ever thought of the bills I need to pay for my kids.

What happened last week ticked me off and I decided that enough is enough.

After almost 3 years, their England is still Error 404 sigh.

They told me that they decided to go to a learning center that provides "linguistic examination and certificate" to continue learning English. I gladly let them go.

Best of luck to them.

7. I've learned to accept and do what I feel is comfortable for myself.


For the longest time, I've been shadowed by this huge green monster named Jealousy. I would be envious when I see people going on trips, afford to buy expensive things, and do simple things that I myself wish to do, like eating nice Japanese food (read: sashimi and burnt cheesecake). Somehow this year, I sorta kinda made peace with it and feel less bad about myself. Maybe it's because as a mother of 2, I don't have time for that kind of shitty feelings anymore. Or maybe, I have a couple of goals to hit in 2019 and 2020, hence, I've shifted my focus to somewhere else. I do still feel it when that monster is trying to take over me but the feeling is more subtle now. Whatever it is, I hope to be fully at peace with myself. I'll take it easy, one day at a time.

Overall, 2018 has been pretty good. I'm looking forward to 2019 already!

Thursday, December 6, 2018

My Girls' Trip to Bangkok with One Child - Part 3

As you've read from Part 1 and Part 2, you could see that Emmett and I endured flight delays. Twice!

2 hours delayed when we depart to Bangkok and blardy 6 hours delayed when returning to Kuala Lumpur FOL. We're supposed to reach Bangkok around 8pm local time and I wanted to walk around exploring the place we stay for some much craved local food but unfortunately we only manage to touch down around 11pm local time. I didn't even get to take my in-flight meal cause Emmett was exhausted and still not feeling well then, so he was crying almost 60% of the time sigh. And can you imagine being stranded at the airport for 6 blardy hours!? Some more Don Muang airport is nothing like KLIA or KLIA 2. There's no restaurant or cafe to sit around and wait, no live entertainment, no Family Mart, nothing! This flight delay made me appreciate our airports a lot more now.

To be fair, the flight delays were due to the bad weather in KL as it was raining heavily. While I appreciate that they're doing it due to safety precautions but honestly, all those time spent on waiting could be put into doing something more productive, like eating good and cheap Thailand street food wtf.

Food is another issue for Emmett. If you've been to Bangkok, or any part of Thailand, you'd know that most of the food there are just not suitable for kids. They're either spicy, sourish or too sweet. Besides that, Bangkok is just basically not baby/ toddler friendly.

Joanne and Peggy with a chairless Emmett taking a wefie at a roadside stall while I erm went to buy more food lol.

I understand if there's no baby chair at food stalls on the street. But not even in a well-known shopping plaza's food court? There was also a restaurant that we visited that provides high chair, literally. That high chair, though, has no food tray and the openings on the sides are wide enough for a toddler to slip through and fall.


This is the said high chair. I had to hold on to him with one hand while eating with another. Motherhood is the mother in training to be a multitasking master wtf.

The glamorous reality of motherhood wtf.


So how did Emmett and I survive it all?

Baby-wearing & Breastfeeding.

I know I've said this too many times but baby-wearing and breastfeeding are life-savers for mothers (and babies).

By baby-wearing Emmett, I got to do a looooot of things.

I can start our day early even though the little one was still sleepy. 
走错路 under the hot sun wtf.
I can commute around in LRT (oh and climb up flights of stairs to reach the station).
Have our checklist checked without compromising his nap time.

Shop till we drop, literally. 

Selfie happily before knowing that we would be stranded at the airport for 6 farking hours.
And as for his food, well, he's either eating something non-spicy and non-sourish, sanwiches from 7evelen or got his tummy filled by visiting the breastaurant.

Said breastaurant a.k.a. walking-food-vending-machine lol.
With 2 kids now, I really cannot stress enough how baby-wearing and breastfeeding have helped me to survive it all while raising them. I mean, I know I can still enjoy my time in Bangkok even if I bring a stroller or bottle feeding Emmett. It's just that I know that it will take extra effort to get things done and be on the move.

That's the end of my posts for this remarkable Bangkok trip. Thanks again, Peggy and Joanne, for allowing me to tag along. And most importantly, thank you hubby, for agreeing to take care of Charlotte and allowing me to make this trip happened.


Sunday, January 28, 2018

My 2017 in review

It's the end of Jan 2018 and now only I'm reviewing my 2017 #winliao

I'm not sure how to start but my 2017 is definitely the most challenging year I've ever encountered. Yet it was also fruitful in its beautiful way. Let me just pen down a few major ones.

1. I got pregnant.

Blogged about it HERE.

It had been my desire to get a sibling for Charlotte and we got lucky by hitting the jackpot only after one try (sorry but not sorry for tmi lol). And then it was an emotional roller coaster ride throughout the pregnancy, constantly fearing if I could ever love another human being again, and often regretting when I thought I couldn't spend enough quality time with Charlotte anymore. I was in denial for a long period of time though I had announced it to family members and a few close friends. I didn't talk to the little fetus like how I did when I was pregnant with Charlotte, not until much later when the bump was more obvious. I think I spent most of my time worrying than feeling joyful and for that, I'm sorry, Emmett. I blame it on myself. And those stupid hormones. 

2. We went to Japan as a family of 3 + 1.

Blogged about it HERE.

We went back to Osaka, Kyoto and Nara. I anticipated the trip since the day we bought our air tickets but honestly, I didn't enjoy it as much as we did when we went in June 2015 cause it was FREAKING BLARDY COLD. I thought I might be the one who can endure the winter the most as I've been to countries in winter before but boy I was so so wrong. I was down on the 3rd day due to the coldness. And since we brought Charlotte along, we missed out on a few things. My biggest regret was not eating Ichiran Ramen 😭😭😭 Also, since I was already pregnant, I was forbidden to eat sashimi. CAN YOU FEEL THE PAIN IN MY SOUL wtf. It also doesn't help when one day after we came back from Japan, Charlotte reset my phone and all our photos taken in Japan were gone. GONE!

Nevertheless, I will forever want to go back to Japan cause it's just a really really beautiful country and if I do, I WILL EAT ICHIRAN RAMEN, SASHIMISSS AND WAGYU BEEF WITH A VENGEANCE wtf 😁😁😁😂😂😂

3. We went to Adelaide for my baby brother's convocation.



It's my first trip with my dad after so many years of not joining him on his yearly family tour. To cut the story short, I was rebellious. To me, it was a time well spent with them, albeit a little argument during the trip.

So the last Loo in the family has finally graduated and my dad is now officially a full-time traveler.  Good for him, he deserves it. I love you, daddy.

4. I was conned and betrayed by my own relative.

This is somewhat the major highlight of the year. And this relative has opened my eyes to how selfish a person can be. And because of her, I fought a tough battle against my reporting manager for my rights. I didn't "win" the battle entirely but I've got what I deserved, walked away and moved on. I've also decided to cut her off as I don't wanna have anything to do with her ever again. 

Just in case some of you who know her and wants to pass her the message, please tell her that this is not a one-time-event. It's because of all the disappointments that piled up as we grew up together. No point elaborating cause she won't remember a single thing as she's ignorant like that. 

Bye, Felicia.

5. I gained a few close friends at work.

My lunch buddies are some really fun people I got to know from my previous work place and I'm really really glad to get to know them cause they helped me A LOT when battling for my rights. And it's because of them, I got the strength and knowledge to stand up tall and fight back, knowing that I have them and justice on my side. 

6. I gave birth to Emmett.


This birth experience made me salute mummies who gave birth naturally. I would even bow 90° if  you tell me you've given birth naturally without epidural. I thought I've prepared myself and would be tough enough to endure labour pain but I was so wrong. I SCREAMED for c-sect, even though I was already 4cm dilated.

And my heart grew bigger. I think it's just a natural thing to love another human being of your own even though you thought you've given all your love and couldn't do it all over again.

Now as a mom of 2, time just jets by. Writing this post now is a testimony itself.

7. I went back to teaching.

I had one year experience in the corporate world and I guess I've had enough of it. I'm lucky to have found a teaching job before the year ended and I'm feeling quite comfortable doing what I'm good at. I'm not sure if I will have the urge to challenge myself again and do something other than teaching, cause I always do even though I say I don't. Does it make any sense? But right now I'm really happy with this job cause of the working hours that allows me to spend more time with my kids.

Ya. Kids. I have kids now. 

2018 is looking so good so far. Exciting things, that I cannot speak about yet, are happening this year and I can't wait for it to unfold. I'm feeling positive.

Bring it on!