Monday, October 19, 2020

20 Facts About Me (version 2020)

 I've been documenting more on my social medias these days and neglecting this space. Not even sure if there's any more reader on this platform. But there's something about blogging that makes me wanna... hold on to it. I don't know but I find it hard to just delete and ditch it. It used to be my safe space, until it wasn't. The funny thing is, now it is again because... there's less viewer here...

Friday, September 25, 2020

Demotivated

Emmett's birthday is coming up but I realized I am not feeling the omph. Like, I was enthusiastic when Charlotte turned 3. I brought her to the mall, spent money on those indoor playland and let her have fun. I even baked her a cake this year to celebrate her 5th birthday.Earlier this week, even though...

Wednesday, August 12, 2020

Night Owl turns to a Morning Bird

 So, I've been staying at my dad's house for 4 days now and believe it or not, I've not seen my brothers! I saw Wei on the first night we moved back cause he was home on a Sunday night. But that was it. And I didn't even get to see Ting at all! How bizarre!? I heard his voice though as I'm a light sleeper and I wake up every time I hear something so I'm pretty sure he's still staying here haha....

Monday, August 10, 2020

Moving back into my old room + reno update

Brought the kids back since last night to stay at my dad's place as the flooring renovation started today. I was having a lot of feelings. Coming back to my once favorite hiding place that is no longer mine. The room is vacant but it still doesn't feel like I "claimed" it back as I move back in....

Friday, August 7, 2020

Why is renovating so stressful?

It's so hard to find a good contractor to fix the floor. The initial one I engaged has an attitude problem. Now I'm not even sure if he is coming next Monday to start work. So instead of waiting for him and taking in all his shitty attitude, I have started contacting other contractors for quotation. The more I ask the sadder I become because their solution and recommendations are quite different...

Wednesday, August 5, 2020

I survived without my mobile phone

Today, I left my phone at home the whole day. It's not unusual haha. But as I rely on my phone quite a lot for work purpose, it does get quite uneasy throughout the day. But I survived! Just need to catch up with all the messages and emails that came in. Also survived free time by doing readings on my kindle. I remember when I was younger and bought myself my first phone (which was...

Monday, August 3, 2020

What's comin' will come (bye bye money)

I've been putting this aside for far too long. But today, Charlotte, engrossed to the screen in front of her, has forgotten all the nagging and reminder to not step on that specific area, sat on it."Craaaacccckkkkkkk~"I stared at her while she looked back at me blindly. Then slowly turn her head and...

Sunday, August 2, 2020

Outsider

I feel like I don't matter to people who matter a lot to me.It wasn't the first time I wasn't invited to a family dinner. It wasn't the first time my family and I were excluded in a joyous celebration. Yet it hurts so bad. Like, so so bad.I can never get used to it. I mean, how can one ever get used to being... abandoned?One might say that, oh, it's a fine dining place and there's no suitable food...

Wednesday, May 13, 2020

Little Joys during MCO

It's been 57 days since Malaysia began the implementation the movement control orders. Not exactly sure if I'm an optimist, but I am glad that I manage to find joy in little things. As the saying goes, "It’s the little things that make happy moments".Here are some of the things that I've been really...

Thursday, April 30, 2020

Charlotte turns 5

Today, dear Charlotte, you turn 5. You are a girl with persistent. Especially with your whys.  Why is today my birthday? Why does everyone have a birthday? Why do you love me? Why can't I eat junk food? Why am I not 33 years old yet? Why am I growing up so slowly? You wouldn't stop asking...