Demotivated

Emmett's birthday is coming up but I realized I am not feeling the omph. Like, I was enthusiastic when Charlotte turned 3. I brought her to the mall, spent money on those indoor playland and let her have fun. I even baked her a cake this year to celebrate her 5th birthday.

Earlier this week, even though aware that his birthday is just around the corner, I found myself feeling lazy and unmotivated to even plan anything. I've got his present ready but that's it. That's what I've done so far.

I love him. I really do. But I can't bring myself to even think of something to do next Tuesday. I am even thinking to make do with a store bought cake. He'd be just as happy.

But, why? Why am I feeling this way? What's wrong with me? It's only his 3rd birthday.

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